the world is in a state of collapse right now. it is atlantis all over again and something is about to happen to St. Louis. i'm not sure what, i doubt they could rally enough people to riot properly, so i image it has to do with the weather. a storm is coming here. i am leaving soon, as per the signs the earth has shown me. last night the trees were all bending and there were hawks everywhere. i even saw sea gulls, SEA GULLS, in middle missouri two days ago. the plants are freaking out because the seasons and rains are all messed up. there was a huge drought here this summer because the jerks withheld the summer rains for the midwest in order to create sandy. it killed %88 percent of the corn crop. farmers are getting like 20 bushels of crops her acre when they normally get around 190. math. anyway, the sky is about to cash in and those that will pay are the ones who have refused to die spiritual deaths, intellectual deaths, and physical deaths. basically, the rigid jerks who are running the show are killing themselves through projection onto the masses they themselves have created. they know they they are bad, that's why they pay prostitutes to call them names and tell them what pathetic, self-centered jerks they truly are. ugh.
so here is the thing about dying: it is not all that bad. i actually work hard to die everyday in some way. spiritual deaths are the most important and least common to most people. they involved a total over-haul of the way a person interacts with his environment. relations with superiors, inferiors, and countrymen should change. relations with god, the earth and one's self should also shift. and then things will get better. they will likely puff up for a while, people with have to rearrange to the new you, but it is likely they will be much happier with your new self. spiritual death is obtained however, through intellectual death, or basically admitting you were wrong, that you don't like the part of yourself that thinks about something a certain way, and that you want to initiate new thought patterns. this can suck and it takes a certain amount of ego murder/suicide but you will come out the other end with a much more organized, less fearful mind. the crux of intellectual death is cognitive dissonance, or thinking two conflicting things at once. such as i like to have sex with women, but i hate my mother. those things conflict. conflicting thoughts immediately cause anxiety and fear. clearing out unwanted modes of thinking is the only way to maintain decency inside yourself. it sucks, but mental house-keeping is very important to your relationships.
i would like to take a moment now and talk about what it takes to cull bad thoughts from your mind. first, you've got to look at the darkness. look at it. look at what sucks. look at what you hate, how you hate it, how it affects you and those around you. see what is inside of you that you hate. this is called the shadow. it's Jungain, if you care. it is the place the eye does not see, it houses what we often refuse to acknowledge. acknowledge it. now. look at what suck about you. look at all of it: past, present and future as well as how your shadow affects the world around you. most people have stupid long shadows they just lay all over everyone else. they ask everyone else to hate them so that they don't have to. stop making hating you someone else's job and do it yourself. hate yourself good and hard for like twenty minutes and then just decide those things/actions/thoughts inside of your are so rancorous that you must purge them. cry cry cry. let your hate, fear and shame leave your body. let your emotions flow out of you in a river of rebirth. clean and clear your mental space for a new way of looking at things, because really, WHAT YOU SEE DEPENDS MAINLY ON HOW YOU LOOK AT THINGS. your world could be heaven or hell, based on how you view it. let go of the hell in you, give death to the parts of you you hate, and let them go. then go throw away a bunch of trash and stuff you've wanted to get rid of for years. then take a bath/shower, possibly smoke some weed, DO NOT DRINK (this forestalls spiritual death), and then go do something you've been meaning to do all your life. like get the new part for your car, or get your eyebrows arched, whatever. just do something new to seal the deal.
now let us speak of physical death. it comes in a few ways. of course, your body could stop moving, breathing, functioning, but the most common physical death is orgasm. the problem here is that the jerks in charge have screwed with everyone's emotional sex life so much, orgasm is barely possible these days. instead, people drink too much, smoke too much, talk too much, eat too much, play with screens too much, spend/make too much/too little money. these are all forms of sexual displacement. if you feel that you are doing too much or too little of these, you need to die to the part of you that thinks it NEEDS a new dress or a new video game. what you need is a big, rollicking orgasm. you need to use your body, become more vital and physically aware. because if you can't get enough good, emotional sex, your body will a) start hurting itself in the form of accidents or b) start searching for substitutes in the forms of money, drugs (aka sugar), tactile stimulation, and empty sexual encounters. so basically, death is awesome. your body, mind and spirit all want to die every now and then so that they can be reborn anew. this "holiday season" death should be a new commodity. the ability to change, to wander, to not always know the way but to at least know the wrong way, that is what should matter now. take care, st. louis, take care america, and take care of you, which INCLUDES some occasional death. :)
just dance with death :) she has a butterfly on her head for rebirth :)
