so last night we went bowling, which is hilarious enough by itself as it's a game where people roll balls to knock down phalluses while wearing clown shoes. i did not bowl, but i did watch everyone and mostly what i picked up on was this: say no to hoes. this is the year of the prostitute, 13 being the number of the individual (1) relating to the community (3) without stopping at 2, or the couple, first. it is also the year of the snake, or penis so 13 is also the number of the male prostitute, aka the unctuous businessmen in ill-fitting suits who lie and cheat and steal as well as the ladies of the night.
there's none of the love, none of the understanding that comes from two people relating to one another in a meaningful way. 13 is the number of the performance, the ego tap dancing before a community. so basically, watch out for the sexual tap dancers. they're all show, they'll dance with anyone, and they don't slow dance; they are those insecure women who will stop at nothing to get free drinks and that insecure dude who will say whatever it takes to get free sex. these people are the downfall of civilization and don't respect sexual love. they've forgotten that sex is a magical spell to bind people so that they become more whole through the union of their feminine and masculine energy, regardless of their sexual preferences. and of course there are the men who will stop at nothing to get a free drink and women who spin webs to sleep with guys but i can't even get into their sexual psychosis. basically, these prostitutes are black holes and all the sex and drinks and drugs in the world will never help them.
you can't fuck a prostitute into being whole again. they have to salvage themselves first. they have to die a spiritual death to their prostitute self. letting go of the person inside you who just wants to get something from someone using sexual magnetism is an important part of becoming whole and ready to give yourself wholly to someone. you can't use your charisma and sexiness to sway people when you're in a relationship; it's being a prostitute, it's like cheating if you lend someone your sexuality for a moment to get what you want. it's also gross and certainly does not last forever. it even happens within genders (heterosexually speaking). it makes me sad to see a woman displaying and flaunting how sexy she is so that she can dominate other women, probably because i used to do it. but now i know it's not cool to show the women around you that you are sexier and can draw more men than them. it's one of the reasons ads in women's magazines are whack. anyway, kill the prostitute in yourself this year so you don't have to be a sex slave to the system. :)
