[Wrote the bulk of this yesterday]
So, on my baby cousin’s birthday I want to revamp my stance on Numerology. It’s been about ten years since I wrote my last post on it, and since then I’ve learned a few things. Let me start by saying that last time, I had derived most of my interpretations of the numbers from the Tarot, which I no longer read, because, just like they say it is, it’s evil. However, my derived understanding of the numbers was essentially "correct". The numbers have faithfully shown up as such ever since I named them thus. However, there is more to this game; it’s a bit deeper than I previously understood. For instance, the number 7 is more complex and, truly, more annoying than I previously thought. Which means the number 72, ostensibly “God’s number”, isn’t quite what I thought, either. We’ll get into all that, but first a note:
Modern
Numerology will tell you some bullshit about adding the numbers up, and I guess
you can do that, and it may have merit, but I don’t do it nor do I find it
sufficient enough to describe fully, say, a long list of numbers. You think
67942 can just be boiled down to the number 1?? Nah, dog, there’s a whole story
there, that goes way beyond the sum of those numbers, that you miss entirely if
you just boil then down to one number. Which brings up my second note:
In
the intervening time between my last Numerology post and now, I have noticed
two different ways of “reading” a number’s “story”, which I call WHOLE vs.
SERIAL. Now, vs. might not be entirely appropriate here because a “whole”
reading of a number and a “serial” reading of the same number are both
applicable and equally present, kind of like a map of the highways in a state
and a topographical map of that same state are both representation of true,
verifiable information about the landscape of the state. Whole reading sees the
numbers as they are, all at once, like a photo. Serial reading sees the numbers
as they come, sequentially, like a movie.
For
instance, my baby cousin’s birthday is today 10.26. Ok so I’ll get into all
this later, but the number 1 is the “individual”, 0 is “space” or “separation”,
kind of like a buffer, 2 is the “couple” and 6 is “sex”. So, reading her
birthday as a whole, you could say this young person may have some issues with
sex, as her birthday could be interpreted as “an individual apart from a
sexually active couple”. Now, this energy could be expressed many ways: maybe
the child when it is grown just won’t
like sex, maybe they’ll choose some religious path of celibacy, maybe they’ll
just prefer to be alone and will see any type of engagement as “messy” (because
sex is more than just coitus, it encompasses all forms of interaction [I’m
“having sex” with this computer right now]).
Anyway, that is the “whole” way to look at it. The serial way is to look at the numbers more as a sequence, reading them left to right, as if they were on a "time line". 10.26 could mean that at first, they will be “alone” (independent, distant, unique) and then, after some time, they’ll be part of a sexual relationship. This is, of course, natural and how it goes for most people. Both interpretations are present and applicable but notice that in both “stories” for the number 10.26, the fundamental idea is the same: in some way, at some time, this child will be separate from coupled-up sex (as opposed to me, born 6.10, who is constantly just walking around “having sex with herself”, separate from everyone, everything, and any outside influence at all- fits, no? ;) This interpretation seems fitting because my baby cousin doesn’t like cake, a universal symbol of sex. It also makes sense because children’s birthdays are really just extrapolated and exaggerated aspects of their parent’s identities, often within their relationship; sort of like a trait or situation the parents both share, distilled into a personality and come to life in the form of their child. And I can kind of say that my cousin’s parents seem to suffer from this kind of situation of “individual separate from sex”. Which brings up my third point:
Certain numbers have certain “purviews” or governing areas. Sometimes it’s a simple association, like someone’s phone number is obviously “code” for how they communicate, or the numbers that pop up when we get gas govern our experience driving for as long as that gas lasts, but things like addresses, birthdays, and social security numbers are more complex. Take a birthday, for instance. That number is part of you, it defines you in many ways, and its number’s meanings run through your personality from the day it was given to you, but how so? Is your birthday your strength? Your weakness? Your life path? Your Modus Operandi? Your best quality? Your worst quality? The answer is yes. As far as I can tell, it is all of these. Your birthday is what you are best at, but also struggle with; it is what you represent and perform as well as being your biggest challenge in life. A social security number is easier: that’s the “code” the government has put on you, and it’s bullshit. I don’t know how they give out those numbers, but it ain’t cool. For instance, the first three numbers of my SSN are 255. As we know, 2 is the number of the couple, but 5 is the number of chaos, separation, and crisis. Now I’ve got two 5’s which is double trouble, and while that may be an "accurate" description of my romantic life, it's ultimately bullshit, because who's to say that my sex life is the way it is because of this (the Government??), which brings me to my last point before we get into what the numbers actually mean:
Double
numbers are a whole thing. Triple numbers are a whole other thing. And beyond
that, it’s just nuts. Now to talk about reoccurring numbers we have to get into
a concept important to me: the shadow. The shadow is a concept by no means
created by, but we’ll say “introduced to”, modern man through Carl Jung, a
psychologist at a time when the field was nascent, and a sort of "shadow" contemporary of
Freud’s. The idea is this: there is a sort of subliminal, unknown, “dark” space
in our psyches called the shadow, where we repress stuff. Everything we refuse
to acknowledge, about ourselves, our world, and/or our relationships, goes into
this liminal space. It’s not always “bad” stuff; as Jung would say, the shadow
contains much “gold”: such as what we cannot acknowledge about ourselves
because it is “too good”. Our capacity for and tendency towards leadership
could be relegated to the shadow, because it would make us socially salient, a
possible a target for abuse, or at the very least, we would have a great deal
more responsibility were we to accept a role as leader.
The
point is: when a number is expressed twice, such as 22, I have found that this double iteration expresses both the “light” side of that number and the “shadow” side of it as
well. So 22 could be taken to mean something as innocuous as a relationship
that is both beneficial as well as a struggle, or something as heinous as any
abusive relationship between two entities. Both “stories” of the number 22 express
the “light” and the “shadow” of relationship, the meaning of the
foundation of 22, the number 2.
Sidebar: sequential numbers are somehow “holy”, I guess because they’re “natural”. So numbers like 4567 and 123 and event 421, 422, 423 are all "holy", or are "more divine" than sequential numbers. I feel like there have to be at least three sequential numbers in a row for this to take effect. But, yeah, apparently 678 is "holier" than 879…
Another note: this is just how I view numbers, and so they show up to me as such. Part of me believes that how other people view numbers also shows up to them like that, because, you know, we create our own worlds with our thoughts and beliefs about it. However, I will say that my experience of the numbers as I understand them has been UNIVERSAL and TOTAL in my life. There is no exception. Numbers cannot lie. And I just can’t see how anyone else’s interpretation is “right”. Lol. But, you know, that’s just me. Anywho, here are the numbers (as I see them).
1) The individual. One person, one consciousness, one entity. Uniqueness, individuality, aloneness. Solidarity, wholeness, completion.
11)
I have several thoughts on the number 11, such as it could just mean the
individual alone and then alone again: just a continuation of the state of
solitariness. But sometimes it means two people alone, and sometimes it
means two people alone, together; kind of like the form of 11: two
people, still very much individuals, but standing beside one another, separate
but together.
111)
In my experience, this number is just a whole lot of alone time. If you see it
associated with a person, they are likely very, very lonely. And then stuff like 11:11, that's just crazy loneliness... So lonely you might not even know how alone you really are... Anyway, say hi, it’ll
brighten their day at the least, change their life, at most. These loners can
also make very good, rigorous friends, because, you know, they value you more
than most people will, as you are one of the few people actually in their lives.
2)
The couple, a dyad, duality in all its forms. First and foremost, this is a number of relationship and
connection and interaction in general. Secondly, it is all things dual, be they
light and dark, male and female, hot and cold.
22)
As discussed before, this is a number that expresses both the light and shadow
side of relationship and relating in general. If you see this number, just
approach with caution because it usually signifies something kind of “dark” in
the relationship department: s&m, taboo behavior, possible homosexuality,
attachment or abandonment issues, or just weird ideas on how to relate. But honestly, every relationship is a 22 on some level, because every relationship is in some part in the shadow, because it's not in the "light", in that "we" never see half of what is going on between two people who are relating.
222)
Just a whole lot of “us” time. Possible obsession with coupledom. Maximum
relating.
3)
So, 3 is a number with dual meaning. My first interpretation upon seeing a 3 is
“community”, following the pattern of 1 being 1 person, 2 being 2 people, then
3 people is a “community” and so 3 encompasses all that that entails:
relationship, communication, diversity of race, thought, sexuality, and gender.
Just all the things that exist and happen when you have more than two people
together. Now, 3 is also a “divine” number because of the Christian “Trinity”, which is based on the larger, more universal idea of tertiary relationships,
found all over the “higher realms” of “nature”: past, present, and future;
here, there, and the space between; mind, body, and soul. You get the picture:
3 is part of the archetypal governing dynamic of our universe and so it is
“divine”. But mainly, it "means" community.
33)
Ok so this is a complex number. First, when I see a 33, I immediately think “Freemason”
because it’s kinda “their” number. They have 33 degrees of Freemasonry and
probably a lot of other things regarding 33, but the reason why it's such a thing for Freemasons is this: 33
represents both the light and dark side of community. Now, if you’ve read any
of my blog, you know that the Freemasons are certainly dark. If you haven’t,
I’m sure you can at least see that they are in the “shadow” because they are a
“secret society” and we “don’t know” what they get up to in their “temples”.
Anywho, 33 is just an expression of society’s “light side” as well as its “dark
side”. You can take this into any social arena: a 33 in childhood would be,
obviously, the carefree innocence of those days, but also the bullying and
mean-spirited ways of children, not to mention all the “weird” things kids do
in groups: sex play, playing “pretend” that just goes a little too far, mock
battles, whatever. A 33 in adulthood would be like a group of guys who really
like My Little Ponies, or ladies who fight each other because they’re bored
with their hum drum lives, even homosexuality could still probably be under the
purview of 33. Just anything communally “repressed”.
333)
I don’t even know… super, lots of community? A trinity of trinities? God God
God???
4)
Four is the most “basic” number. It stands for stability, the home, the earth,
wholeness, and completion. Think about it: a square has 4 corners, there are 4
directions, 4 elements, and 4 seasons. It’s just the foundational, basic, stable number of
our realm.
44)
This is when 4 gets “interesting”. 44 is an expression of, yes, you guessed it,
the “light" and “dark” side of stability, the home, and the earth. Basically 44
just speaks of stagnation and stasis. It's just a bit too much stability,
where things are just sort of lying around, very still, possibly rotting. This brings
into play the Chinese interpretation of the number 4: death. I guess the
Chinese took the number 4 to the extreme and decided it meant ultimate
stability and stillness. Idk but when I see the number 44 on someone’s license
plate or in their phone number, I know they don’t get out much, are pretty
chill, and don’t like change.
444)
Just very, very stable, like an agoraphobic kind of stable. Like I'm-so-scared-of-change-I-won't-leave-my-house stable. Kind of like dead stable. I think Beyonce and Jay Z are really into this number,
or something. Probably because their relationship is "dead" and just based on keeping their "household" together...
5)
Ok so 5 has got to be the most kickass number. It stands for crazy shit like
chaos, crisis, and radical, revolutionary upheaval. It also means things like separation, being rent
apart, and downfall. But within all that insanity, is the seed of something
vital and good and necessary: CHANGE. 5 is the transformative number that
shakes shit up. It may not feel good or look good and you may not WANT it, but
it will provide you freedom from all that locked-up, stability, and stasis of the 4. I must mention, that when I won my beauty pageant, I was contestant number 5; and instead of saying "Good evening, ladies and gentleman, I'm contestant number 5" like I was "supposed to", I said "What's shakin', ladies and gentleman, I'm contestant number 5". Then I won that shit with my sparkling personality and big ass face. ;)
55)
Like I said, double trouble. If you see 55 anywhere, you can expect a wild
ride. I don’t even super know how to interpret the “shadow” of chaos, crisis,
and change, but I do know that when I see 55, I either run... or jump in with wild
abandon and no expectations, because those won’t last long here anyway. 55 is
just about as crazy as it gets, but remember, crazy people/stuff/situations can
be the very best, the very brightest, and the most fun you’ll ever have. Just
let loose, don’t resist, and go with the flow of the 55.
555)
You’re either gonna die a really, really bonkers death, or end up married to your dream partner, with a
million crazy but cute kids, living in a mansion, possibly on a cliff or some other untenable geographical situation, with tv cameras following
your every move, and everyone knows who you are and they all love/hate you with
equal passion. So, you know, same difference, really. HAVE FUN, DUMMY!
6)
Ok so after all the gut-ripping, breaking-up, insanity of 5, you have beautiful, harmonious 6, where
things come back together again. But there was the 5, so things are
different, but on the other side of 5, with 6, things are, dare I say, much better
(at least than, say, 4). 6 is the number of SEX. Yes, yes, most of us love it:
it’s profound physical pleasure, life-affirming human connection, and plus,
it’s just a whole lot of fun. But really what 6 is, is two 3's coming together.
3, being the divine number, basically represents God, or in this case, a god,
aka a human. (Yes, we are all “gods”: of our life, our world, our perception.
We make life, affect the world, and are “made in ‘his’ image”, aka we are
little bits of God running around. We are God’s body, God made flesh, God
experiencing God. Jesus DID say “Ye are Gods” as well as “These things and
greater shall you do”... Just take the compliment already…) And so, in the number 6, we
have two 3's, or two gods, coming together in perfect, holy union. And so, the
number 6 is sex, and all that that implies: passion, pleasure, connection,
beauty, leisure, play, love, interaction, touch, sharing, giving, taking, and
souls merging into one.
66)
So obviously this number represents the “light” and “shadow” sides of sex,
which includes things you’d think like incest, rape, molestation, s&m, anal sex, cosplay, furries, bondage, role playing,
homosexuality, whatever. But it also includes things like virginity, or celibacy, asexuality, malfunctioning sex organs, sexual issues in general, or even sexual displacement- which means doing things in
the place of having sex like eating, drugs, watching tv, or shopping.
666)
Ok, so I know some of you are freaking out right now, and I get that, because I
did too at one time. But if you follow what I’ve been saying, 6 is a GOOD
number; like, the best number. So how can 666 be so bad? I mean, I guess
there’s such a thing as too much sex, but is there? Is there really?
Idk. I know I, personally, do not want to have sex three times in a row. Twice,
maybe, if the guy is a Christ, but I mean, I do think there’s a problem
when you have too much of a need for sex, are addicted to it, or
use it to replace self-love. But actual intercourse? Can you ever really have
too much connection, passion, or pleasure? Can your life ever be too affirmed or
affirming? Can you ever really serve too much or receive too much? I mean,
maybe. But does that mean 666 is a bad number? That it’s evil?
That it references the devil? Possibly, but in my experience it’s just another
number that means what you think it does. If you think it means the devil, it
will show up to you in your life that way. If you think it’s a nice number,
then you’ll like it when you see it. As for me, I don’t super know. I know that
I don’t trust the church, or even the Bible all the way. I know that the church
and the Bible say the number 72 is “good” and I know I haven’t experienced
that. When I have encountered 666 is often did warn me of or signal to
me lots of sex, mostly gnarly sex with negative outcomes, but that was back
when I viewed it as “the devil’s number”. Nowadays I really don’t see it at
all. So idk what it really “means” beyond just a whole lot of fuckin’.
7)
So here we have it: seven. Lucky number 7. Magical 7. 777 wins the jackpot,
right? I mean, idk anymore!!!!!!! I still think 7 means spirituality, magic, and
higher learning, but I see all that a little differently now. After being in
the spirituality game for about 15 years, I see now that this point of view has
a “cost”; because when you’re AWAKE like that, truly
seeing the good and evil of everyone and everything, and watching the real
show, it’s A LOT. Like so, so much. And hardly anyone else is watching the
same program, so you can’t really talk to anyone about it; and even if they
are, they’re on another episode, or they don't think about it the same way, or they're watching a different season or whatever. It’s lonely and alienating and
sometimes sad to see the "wires fraying inside the tv" that is truly 7... And when you start to
change the channel, or play with the dials that control the saturation, or the
hue of your picture, and you don’t super know what you’re doing, you can make things look real
crazy without ever meaning to. On the other hand, though, your show is like 71,000,000,000 times cooler than anyone else’s and much, much prettier, and you can like, talk to the
creator, director, and actors and even make your own episodes. So, you know, it’s a trade-off. 😊
But,
really, after being in the magic game for about 11 years now, the magic in 7 just hits
differently now. Yeah magic is fun, cool, and effective but it also has a cost, a real
world cost to your real life. All the magic you do, good or bad, it
all comes back to you, tenfold or seven fold or threefold or whatever. You fuck
with the big, elemental forces in the universe, sometimes they fuck back, and actually, they always do. It’s
like a ripple in spacetime when you do a “spell”: it goes out, does something
(not usually even what you intended, or maybe you do get “what you wanted”, but
there are insane side effects you just didn’t see coming) but then it comes
back to you. Like you can’t just curse someone without that affecting you,
too. And similarly, if you do light working magic, and help someone or yourself
or just the world at large, intending positive, good things, you still have to
do shadow work too, or things get “out of balance”. And it’s not just like it
costs money to buy crystals and oils and incense, but there’s an opportunity
cost involved in magic too: some people cease to see you as, like, “pure” or
“good” or even “sane” when you do magic. Especially the way I do it: you fight
the good fight long enough, you run into bad guys who look like good guys to
everyone else because they just can’t see what you can, and things get crazy
when you react to that bad person’s “invisible” evil.
As
for 7’s higher learning, you bet. But it’s higher learning as in your-shit’s-all-whack-and-you-need-an-ass-kicking
higher learning. 7's high learning is more like get-your-shit-together-in-these-ways-now-or-else kind of a lesson. So, all in all, seven isn’t so much about winning the lottery
as it is about recognizing that life/you/the world needs help/to change/to be
different and that the only way to do that is a different way than how you’re
currently doing it. It’s also not a stopping point, 7. It’s a signpost pointing you
toward another path. 7 is a lot of "perpetual seeking" and "figuring it out" and "don't stop now, you have miles and miles to go before you sleep". So, yeah, it’s magic, and yeah, it’s spiritual, but it’s not
just the light, fluffy, fun side of those things. It’s more like a taskmaster, a
puzzle that really will never be solved because you’re doing the wrong one, or
you have non-matching pieces, or the box and the puzzle don’t match and so you just don't know what the fuck you're even doing. Really, 7 is a swift
kick in the ass to get you going in another direction.
77)
So if 7 is this hardass, get-your-shit-together angel pointing a flaming sword
in a different direction than the one
you’re going, 77 is like a playful demon, beckoning you with a lollipop down
the road you’re already on, to the depths of the pit of hell?? If you see 7 as
magic, then 77 is dark magic. If you see 7 as spirituality, 77 is intense
materiality, just totally lost in the physical, just totally gone into matter:
worshipping mammon, caring only about money, power, and sex, the whole thing.
If you see 7 as higher learning, then 77 is like you’re in detention,
scribbling satanic lyrics on the green desk, making fun of the person you like.
Or 77 could mean you just don’t believe in God at all. I see 77 a lot with
super religious people who just aren’t it. They think they know, they think
they’re doing God’s will, and will swear up and down that you’re going to hell
if you don’t believe as they do, and that they’re path is the only way, but,
really, they’re wrong: so, so wrong. Mostly because they think they’re so, so
right and they’re spreading that hot garbage to as many unsuspecting souls as
they can. You also see 77 with straight up dark magicians.
777) I just don’t even know about this. My only pertinent comment is that the lottery is very, very bad. The numbers that win are very, very bad. The juxtaposition of numbers on the tickets is very, very bad. Where the money goes from purchasing lottery tickets is uncool, and often where it comes from is gross, as well. The worst people win it, and those that do, spend it all and then some, ending up right back where they were, except in debt and with less satisfying relationships, because everyone asked for a handout when they were rich, and scorns them now that they’re back to being broke. Also, it’s so, so dumb. Like, a scam dumb. Do you see rich people playing the lottery? Fuck no, because they know their chances of winning are zilch and they’re better off paying their student loans or investing in a mutual fund or even buying a stripper dinner than playing the lottery.
In the dystopian novel 1984, the upper crust government uses the lottery to control the “proles”, aka proletariat, or the lower class. They give them nothing but grief, substandard goods, and the false hope that one day these trash people will leave their shit lives by “winning the lottery”. If the proles carry around this false hope of a “better life”, then they are more likely to accept their “shit lives” without question, while simultaneously supporting their oppressors with the money they spend on the lottery. There you have it folks, written nearly a hundred years ago: the lottery is a mind-control, misery-displacement scam designed to take your money and give it to kids who don’t need it in the form of scholarships (at least in Georgia, I think, I don’t even know anymore. It used to be all the poor, dumb people’s money from lottery tickets went to fund scholarships for kids who had a B average or above to go to college. This is dumb because those kids likely didn’t super need those scholarships because they already had the support at home enough to get them those good grades. And while academic support at home doesn’t always translate into financial means for further education, I feel like there’s a high correlation between your parents having enough money to send you to college and their drive to drive you to get there.). Anyway, don’t play the fucking lottery, dumbass. 777 is not lucky or cool or "good"; it's a lot of "seeking but never really getting there" or just dangling carrots that are really bombs or something... AVOID.
8)
Ah 8, sweet 8. This’ll be a much shorter section than the last because after
all the complexities and convolutions of 7, you finally get there at 8.
8 is power, money, and manifestation. It is agency, ability, and means. It is,
literally, the infinity symbol. 8 is all the things you gain and achieve by
slogging through the morass of 7. Congratulations! You made it through the
briar patch, lil rabbit, in the number 8.
88) So double 8's are interesting. As the light and shadow of money, power, and manifestation, 88 expresses several things, sometimes simultaneously. It can mean shady, ill-begotten power or fortune, but I feel the true resonance of 88 is best described by my example. You see, I was born in ’88, so I feel that my life uniquely expresses this number’s energy. For one thing, I was born into money and power, a situation reminiscent of 88, as I did nothing to have “accomplished” this and so the sort of shadowy “futile” or “unearned” nature of the 88 (containing both the light and dark side of money, manifestation, and power) is apparent. And yet, at this stage in my life, I am completely and utterly destitute. However, if you’ve read my blog at all, or ever spoken to me at length, or just watched me from afar, you know I possess power beyond belief, even my own at times. And so, while I may not have money, I do have currency-in that goods flow to me and from me without my needing paper bills or coins or even numbers on a screen; and while I may not have control, I certainly have power, and I know that I don’t need control anyway, because I’m not the one "driving" my life anymore; I have acquiesced that agency to my higher power. And while I can only manifest what I’m supposed to, why would I want anything else?
So, yes, I am broke, but I have good credit because I believe in paying debts. In addition, nearly everyone I know would help me if I needed it and, truly, most have. And technically, I can create art or tell your fortune or write you something or arrange your home beautifully and for your soul’s benefit if I can’t pay you. And yes, I am blocked at every turn in my attempts to “get a job” or “find a partner” or even sometimes “make an impact” in the usual sense, but in actuality, I feel like I’m pretending to be poor and playing at being ineffective so that people don’t know I’m actually The One, or at least, one of them. At least not yet. There will come a time when I will step into my power, and write my book, and charm the public, and disseminate the ancient wisdom, and claim my rightful title, and sit on the throne and all that, but I’m just not ready yet.
I’m
having too much fun playing in the shadow, anonymously going about, doing magic
anywhere and everywhere and whenever I want, sleeping with whoever I want, saying whatever I
want, talking to homeless people, traipsing through the woods, looking for bad
magic, whatever, whatever, WHATEVER I want. If I
were living a public life, all that would stop. And so, I play at being poor, I
pretend to be ineffective, powerless, impotent, when really, one day I will do something
very worthwhile, to say the least. Plus, there may be INHERITANCES in mah future, fam... Also, there was a time in my life where all
my money was “in the shadow”: when it was all cash and came too easily. Not to
mention I am currently on disability, receiving the government’s blood money,
both a blessing and a curse. So, while my bills are mostly paid, I have no
expendable cash, and that, too, is a blessing and a curse. I cannot buy things
I want, so now I want nothing at all. And that, my friends, is the 88.
888) I rarely come across such a pointedly powerful number as this, so I really have nothing to say about it other than infinite power? So, so, so much money? All the agency there is? Idk. I saw the other day that this was Jesus's number... Sounds right...
9)
Ah, 9 sweet 9. Even sweeter than 8, some may say. 9 is completion, as it’s
“technically” the last number. It is the pinnacle, the zenith, the sum and
summit, the climax and summation of all that came before. 9 is the orgasm; it is the final
act, the highest point, the ultimate occurrence. Because it represents the
maximum, the utmost, the preeminent, it acts as a sort of amplifier for the
numbers around it. Take 89, this could be like getting your dream job, or
finally getting that check you’ve been looking for, or even winning an election
and becoming president. Or 97, this could be like getting baptized, or doing a
super serious ritual that works out perfectly, or learning a piece of
information you desperately needed to know. Stuff like that, just that extra-life life. 9 is just the
extreme, concluding, finality after the setup, the build up, and the traveling of all those wavering
paths it took for you to get there. HOORAY! You really made it this
time!
99)
So, this is interesting. My first thought is that 99 is The Brat’s (Phil
Hellmuth's) favorite hand in poker. It is pretty powerful, if played correctly.
So, what would be the up side of expressing both the light and dark sides of
finality? Well, you could accomplish two equal and opposite things at once if
you did. You could strike a blow, or finish a match, or wrangle a person, event,
or thing, in both the known realm as well as the unknown realm, at the same
time. There is sort of a dually extended pole of action and summation into both
the light realm and the shadow realm with the number 99, which is itself an
expression of the consummate balance between these. With this sort of
double-ended expression of agency in both realms, you could really do anything,
because the need for balancing light and dark would be absent, as it already
exists in the 99. Any action you took would be balanced already, by
virtue of the fact that it began with impetus from both sides. In a word, the
99 gives you power in both the realm of light and the realm of shadow simultaneously. Which is why Brooklyn 99 is so fun.
Or
99 could mean you just have problems cuming, but there’s power in that, too.
There’s a reason people practice edging: to keep your chi in. If you don’t cum,
you hold your power in; if you “fail” to orgasm, you don’t “release” that
energy and can then use it in other ways, ways possibly more important than
just a physical release and a rush of temporary pleasure. 99 is probably the
most polarized of the double numbers because of what 9 represents: the end. How
can you have two endings? How can something end in the light as well as in the
shadow? How can you use a thwarted ending to your own ends? It’s all in the 99.
999)
I really don’t ever see this number and so have no empirical knowledge of what
it could really mean. Lots of orgasms? Unending pleasure? Unending endings?
Your guess is as good as mine...
Then there is O, which is, like I said, just a place-holder, buffer, and sense of space. It basically provides a sense of separation. Like the library I'm in right now's address is 1001, and the people here, like, DO NOT interact because 1001 is rly just two people, or all people, very, very separated. If O comes at the end of a number, it just means that situation is kind of "out there", as in "untouchable", or just removed from any further influence, because, technically, no other number can "come up behind" it and act on the last "actual" number. Like you could say some deep-jungle tribe is a 3,000 because it's a community no one can "touch", really. Or like how I'm born on the 10th and no one really, really affects me and certainly no one really ever harms me... However, sometime O represents an actual void, emptiness, or lack.
And that, ladies and gentleman, is the foundation of Numerology!!
Now,
for the esoteric part: how numbers affect one another, archetypal numbers, and
the origin of the meaning of numbers in regards to their form.
Let’s
start with how numbers affect one another, because it’s simplest of these last
few topics. So, yes, you can read numbers like letters in words, from left to
right; but you can also kinda read them from right to left, or at least you can
notice the way numbers “bleed” or “comingle” or “integrate” into one another in both directions.
Numbers essentially “interact” with the numbers around them. It means
something when one number is next to another number and not some other
number. It means something when a number comes before another number, or
after, or at the beginning of the sequence of numbers, just as it means
something when letters are positioned thusly.
For example, the
first number in a sequence “sets the tone/stage” for the meaning of the whole number,
or rather it sort of acts as the “what we’re talking about here” opening note.
It's a bit like a topic sentence or a hypothesis (in terms of writing or literature): it lets you know what the story is about, and therefore “acts”
on all the numbers that come after it. Let’s take the area code for St. Louis,
which also happens to be pi: 314. It starts with 3, so we know the preeminent
idea here is the community, specifically the “divine” community. Next, we have
the number one, so the “story” goes like this: we’re talking about the
individual within the community. After that we have the number 4, so the
“story” goes on to be something like this: St. Louis is a place where the
individual finds solidarity, stability, and stasis within the confines of the
community. That’s best possible scenario, because what you may not glean from
just a cursory understating of numerology is that the number 14 isn’t just individual
stasis, it usually goes beyond that into something more like “individual
stagnation”, or, rather, pain. 14 is actually the archetypal number of pain.
So,
what we really have is a community in pain; it's even implied that the
cause of this pain is the fact that here, in St. Louis, the community comes before the
individual, take precedence over the individual, even kind of blots the individual out. 314 could even be seen as “saying” that the individual in this
community is in pain because of the “divine” community and its ensuing effect on them. Which I could
see as being right on the money, because little do people know, St. Louis is
the main bastion of Catholicism in America. It has the only basilica in the US
(which has the largest collection of mosaics anywhere), millions of Catholics
and Catholic schools, it’s home to the Cardinals, and I’m sure St. Louis
himself was a Catholic who did some Catholic thing that was recognized by the
Catholic church so much so that they named a Catholic city after him. CATHOLIC.
In
addition, a Lewis is a Freemason’s son (the Freemasons are bigtime in St. Louis),
the city is home to Anheuser Busch and so everyone is drunk on their beer, and
it’s super segregated and racist out there. St. Louis is home to more private
streets than any other city in America. What is a private street, you may ask?
Me too, until I went to school in St. Louis. It’s just a snooty street that can
only be used by “certain people”; they like to fence them off and gate them
away from us cretinous plebes. Plus, there’s a pervasive sense of hopelessness, futility, and ignominy in St. Louis because it was once a great city: the last stronghold of
civilization before the wild, untamed frontier, and home to the World Fair in
1904. At some point it was dubbed the last “European” city before the frontier, or in America, or something.
But now everyone there knows its glory days are behind it and it’s just a
has-been, next-to-nothing, dying-industrial town on a “dead” river. So, all in all, yes,
that city is in pain, and yes, it’s because the group mentality of religion,
race, and shame crushes the life out of the individuals there, and yes, all
this is self-perpetuating, never-ending, and ever-spiraling like the pi of the circle...
Skip
this part if you’re not deeply interested in St. Louis…
But
really it goes beyond that because the St. Louis Arch is actually a
gravity-control device. How, you may ask? Why, you may ask? The reason anyone
would want to control the gravity in an area is because gravity is highly
linked to our emotions. If you want to upset someone, throw them off, or just ruin their day, hold them upside down. Most of you good people don’t know this, but when you
are possessed by demons, the first thing they do is fuck with your gravity:
that’s why in the media when someone is possessed, they’re like upside down and
jerking around and gravity seems to have no hold on them. And if you control
people’s emotion, you can control them. If you keep a people miserable, you can
turn that misery into profit, especially if they’re guaranteed to be/stay
miserable, not only by selling them crap to “assuage their misery” (like beer),
but also directly, by magical means of turning people’s sorrow into money. It’s
a whole sick thing out there.
How
they manipulate gravity has its basis in magic. You see, the Arch is not a
parabola, as most people assume, if they think about it at all. The Arch is
actually a catenary curve, or the shape a chain makes when you let it hang free, aka when
only GRAVITY is working on it. So, some dark wizard took this natural form of
the effect of gravity and turned it upside down and made it huge and put it
smack dab in the middle of the county, on the banks of the center of the big,
main river in the country, and called it the Gateway to the West. Turning something "up" like how "they" did with the Arch, that represents how gravity actually "goes down" as in the catenary curve, is going to “create” that situation, magically. So, in effect, St. Louisans live "upside down" making them all very cranky, at the least, because of gravity's high link to our emotions... Plus, who knows
what kind of alchemical magical metal is in that Arch thing? Who knows what effect
that metal has next to a river, high, high up in the air? Toss in that the Arch
is symbolically a vagina (a framed vacancy, a portal, a “gateway”), on a “dead”
river (also a vaginal symbol) and you’ve got a recipe for bad-sex, substance-abusing, super demon
despair. I, myself, have even experienced this effect physically. Once, when I
was visiting my friend in Arkansas, I drove up to St. Louis for the day (to actually work magic on the Arch), and
when I stepped out of my car onto that afflicted ground, I almost fell over
because I got dizzy, “out of nowhere”, and “for no reason”.
St.
Louis’s central location within the country is important because it represents
the perfect balance between feminine and masculine (left and right, aka West
Coast and East Coast) and intellect and sexuality (up and down, aka North and
South). That’s why the state’s name is basically misery and why no
modern story ever takes place there: the entire state of Missery (Missouri), but
specifically St. Louis, is a giant breeding ground for the rest of the
country’s unrest. It is basically the country's shadow. That’s why the Ferguson riots and Michael Brown’s murder
happened there; that’s why Black Lives Matter started there. It’s like the bad-guy wizards decided to cordon off an entire state to magically "store" all the
worst shit in America. And they did it, too; and they called that state
Missouri, aka Misery. No one ever tells a tale there because it’s
simultaneously the worst and the best place in America: the very center of our
fair country, the heart of the heartland, an area that should mean
perfect harmony between men and women’s minds, hearts, and bodies. But, due to the
gravity-control magic, the Catholic church, the beer, the “dead” river, the
shame of once being great and now being nothing, and who knows what other
perfidy and machinations, all that centralized, concentrated pain, it’s corrupting
the best of us all. Because that’s what “they” do, the bad guys, the dark
wizards of the Illuminati, New World Order, Catholic church, and Freemasons.
Aaaand
we’re back…
And
trust me, it’s just like that there. Everyone is miserable, everyone is drunk, everyone is stuck in high school, still talking about the "glory days", trying to relive the past. Everyone in St. Louis is weird about religion, everyone is weird about race, everyone is
weird about sex, and it all just keeps reoccurring, circulating (pi, 314),
curling back in on itself. No one there is “working on themselves”, no one is
trying to get better, or make the city better, or change the world in any way at all. It’s a lost, forgotten city, surrounded by crumbling anachronisms and
abandoned by its country. And this affects us all, everyone in America, because
St. Louis, Missouri is the abject, wretched, subhuman sacrifice of the short
story “Those Who Leave Omelas”. It is the dark child who lives in squalor so
that we all can live our "best lives” at its expense, regardless of our
ignorance or knowledge thereof. And all this is “coded” in its area code,
314: the misery (both collective and individual), the endless circling of the
pain drain/drama, the communal agony of racism, the purgatory of the Catholic Church, it’s all there, in those
three little numbers. Numbers, mind you, that begin every phone number
in St. Louis, effectively coding all communication there for this colloquial pain.
*Sigh* But onward, ever onward...
So
the first archetypal number that comes to mind is the number 13, aka the number
of the “prostitute”. That’s why it’s such a thing: 13 represents “prostitute energy”,
which isn’t necessarily “bad”. The number really just describes the nature of a
prostitute’s relationship to the community. If you look at it it’s just 1, the
individual, interacting with 3, the community; and, really, that’s mainly what
a prostitute does, they go around alone and glean "work" from the community. If you
think about it, we are all “prostitutes” when we go to work, leave our house,
or go out alone at all. We may not be selling our bodies, but we’re interacting
with the community as an individual, the same way any hooker or call girl
would. It’s just a form of energy, and we all engage in it.
The
next archetypal number is 14, which we’ve already discussed is a code for “pain”,
or just extreme personal stagnation. Next, would be 15, a personal crisis,
though not really an archetypal number: I think I’ll do a whole section on
numbers with 5, just for “fun”. Next would be 17, which I just recently learned
has been co-opted by the bad guys. I’m not super sure why, may have something
to do with the shady side of 7, but, yeah, 17 is definitely a cabal/New World
Order/shadow government number, for SURE.
Next is 19, which seems like it would be just someone having an orgasm, and "it is that", but it really means more like personal triumph: bringing about "resolution of the self". Accomplishment, personal victory, individual glory, that kind of thing. It's a very individually empowering number.
The number 30 supposedly means “peace” and we already talked about 33 being THE Freemason number.
Next, I guess would be 38, or the number of DEATH. I’m also not super sure why this is, but it is. Just open your eyes to it: you’ll see it. 💀💀
42 is a pretty stable, nice, good number often used; I think it was some important black guy sport star’s number who, like, broke barriers or something. Plus we all know 420... But really, lately, I've been thinking it's not so good, too much emphasis on the stability... 24 seems better...
Next is 57, my favorite number, because it’s Mary Magdalene’s number, because it means “The Rose”, her symbol. I’ve come up with a rationale for that over the years: you see 5 is, yes, crazy shit, crisis, chaos, all that. But then…you have the 7, so you learn from the crisis, and grow from the chaos, and change your life from what it was to something better because of the crazy shit you went through... It’s just a synthesis of problem-solution/resolution. Which is fun. 57 can also reference Jesus, as well. I also think the 5 is a small reference to the "thorn" (prickly 5) that "protects" "the rose", or the 7 aka the lesson or like, gift of the chaos. Interestingly, the number 75 is the number of the “thorn” and, to me, represents some kind of learning/spiritual/magical failure or mishap. Because you had the "lesson" or the “good thing”, the 7, but it is immediately followed by the 5 of crisis and all that. So, yeah, 75 is "you fucked up" making it very thorny...
Another
set of inverted number that is important is 69 and 96. We all know about 69
being a sexy number, and now you truly know why (6, sex, then 9, orgasm), but
what you may not know is its opposite, 96, is also important, but not in the
same way. It’s the “playboy” number, because the playboy is all about his
pleasure, right? And so he values the orgasm over the connection of sex. He’s
in it mostly for the ending, right? So 96 denotes “playboy” energy, as in the
cum before the connection. So, if you see a 96 in a guy’s number, or on his
shirt, or, God forbid, in his address, SSN, or birthday, maybe don’t run,
because the playboy has his place and time (like a raging coke party...), but just be aware that he’s not in
it for you. If a lady has a 96 associated with her, I've found it's the same idea, but in the feminine realm: she's much more into the result, or the look, or the surface of things than she is into the actual substance of a thing. She's probably super into Instagram and Facebook and curates these things endlessly, buying herself or her kids multiple outfits/headbands/whatever for selfies or "family pictures" just to see which has the greatest effect on a screen. In a word, the "playgirl" is just as shallow, vapid, and self-centered as the "playboy".
Now,
let’s talk about 72. So, so complex. In the Bible, it says 72, or I think 720,
is “God’s number”. So, for a long time, I used it as such and sought it out and
smiled upon it. But one day, I saw it used in a way I really could only think
was negative, because of the context and history of my relationship with all the
things. I found it on the back of a mirror in my bathroom. This requires a bit
of explaining.
You
see, as a warrior of the light, I routinely have to scan my house, car, body,
yard, purse, mind, whatever, for bad magic. Because when you fight Satan, he fights
back and not only is that fucker everywhere, he's clever and has a lot of "friends". So I was doing a little energy clearing and I found a lone sticker on the
back of my mirror in my downstairs bathroom that said 0720. Now, I really never
trust any number that I, myself, did not come up with. I may “trust” a
number when I absolutely know its origins, maker, and intentions. Typically all numbers “given”
to us by the system are not good. Tags on clothes, barcodes on books, license plates, whatever,
it’s all "bad programming". So when I saw this 0720 on the back of my mirror, I began to
think. I thought of all the people’s who’s birthdays have 72 in it, I thought
of all the phone numbers I knew that had 72 in it, and I thought of all the
addresses I knew that included 72. And I came to the conclusion that it’s
actually evil? I still don’t know exactly, but observe:
The most damning evidence I have that 72 is evil is that my ex-fiancé's best friend, this giant Chinese guy named Hans, was born on 7.20. Now at first, he was grand. Ran game with my man, we all went to the casino after they paid cash for Hugo Boss suits, he forged bank papers to get us our first apartment, he was my man’s man, so I loved him. But there were also weird things: he bought the same shoes as my man once, and this was back when I knew shoes were sexual, and he sort of "won" the battle of who would wear them. He also would always, uncannily walk in on me and my ex fucking. So, at some point, I got the idea that he wanted me, and this was confirmed one day when he waited till we were alone to give me this little golden Buddha idol card thing, which I actually kept for like 10 years because it was so cool. But shady, right? Like, why not give it to me in front of your best friend and my boyfriend? So shit was kinda weird. But, like, the man saved my life. One time me and my ex were literally starving out in Washington and he sent us a check for like ten grand. I think this actually happened twice. So, I literally owed him my life.
When my ex and I broke up, me and Hans kept in touch. I always,
always remembered his birthday and sent him stuff. We talked on the phone a
couple of times. We liked to talk magic, he was one of the few people I knew
who was a believer. We would talk about changing the sky and the weather and
being “sharks”. He would randomly send me gifts that I never wanted because
they were too evil: really, really nice tarot cards, and two huge books on DnD
art. But, he would never send me gifts on or even acknowledge my actual birthday.
But, I mean, I loved him: he’d fed me when I was starving, he’d helped us out,
watched over us with his big ass bankroll from being some computer coding wiz.
But then he started talking about how he was joining the church of Satan and
how everyone was worthless and just got...dark. He also routinely fell in love with
hos. I also think I remember him telling me about his growing up in some Chinese
cult thing? Where the leader’s wife committed suicide? Idk, could be someone
else, but I think it was him. Anyway, we stopped talking after I asked him for
a favor and I guess he just thought I was being a bitch. But about 7 months ago
I was going through old emails and I found this email we’d exchanged where we
were talking about this online test for which DnD character you were. Part of
the profile you received after answering like 144 questions, was if you were
good, neutral, or evil. He said, in his email to me at the time, that he was “evil”,
and then, like, laughed about it. So, yeah, this person was born July 20th,
7.20, exactly “God’s number”, according to the Bible. So, I just don’t know,
except I do, because another evil fuck I know was born on 7.22.
So, there was this sick shithead in my family who molested a bunch of the women, and he was born on July 22. Alsooooo, my sister was born 7.26 and while she’s isn’t “evil”, she’s definitely deluded and super in the system. Like, this bitch incurred like $50,000 in debt to go to UGA grad school for fucking social work and public health, just so she can work some dead-end, bullshit, soulless job at some “foundation” or something, managing their online catalogue of stuff on how to be a better social worker? Like, just a pointless, soul-sucking, lonely computer job that makes like $55,000 a year. Then, because that’s so tedious and terrible, she drinks every night and has, like, public sex, and who knows what else. The point is, maybe 72 is not this “Godly” number because my sister doesn't super believe in God, Hans is a Satan-worshipping idiot, and the family member fuck fucking sucks.
That's birthdays with 72, now let's talk phone numbers. I once chose a phone number because it started
with 372, which I thought was great, right? When I had that number, it was a terrible
time in my life, mainly dominated by fucking Raymond, my ex-roommate fuckwit,
who’s mother’s phone number also started with 372… Plus, this lady in my family
is married to this super old dick who’s first wife killed herself, at his work, (like drove there, probably said her piece, and shot herself in front of him and all his coworkers) back in like the 70s. She chose to marry the fool who caused some poor
woman to do that. Also, I’ve seen the way her husband treats her and it’s totally dismissive and disrespectful. And her phone number starts with 372. My last instance of 72 related
bullshit is when, once I noticed 72 was shit, I saw that the building next to my local park was number 720. So one day, I pulled in there and just drove slowly around
it, looking for bad magic, something I routinely do everywhere. Now, I have
NEVER seen a faster response to my “intrusion”. A few minutes later, some
giant, jacked truck pulls up with a scary license plate and scary stickers on
it (including that skull with the lines extended down like crazy teeth-what is that shit???) and
some scary dude stares at me scarily. I, of course, stop and stare right back. And
we literally had a staring contest. I can’t remember who backed down first, but
I don’t remember feeling like I wimped out.
Well,
I think that’s basically it for archetypal numbers… I suppose we could talk about
the 5s. So 25 is just about as bad a number as there is. It’s basically a break
up. Anyone born on the 25th, you pretty much know their parents got
divorced and they, themselves, suffer with relationships. Anyone with 25 in their phone number, address, or license plate, they got
problems, too. Mostly problems relating, having a relationship, or just caring about
other people. 35 is just a crisis of the community: I was born at 2:35, which
makes total sense because my parents rebelled when they married each other and
having me was like the product of that. Plus I’ve always dated the bad boy, the
Jew, the Mexican, the crazy, fucked up, alcoholic millionaire, the woman, the
drug dealer, and all the other minorities and heretics I’ve been with. So,
yeah, 2:35? Right on the money for me. 45 is probably the least offensive 5 number,
because this 5 basically just breaks up the stability of the 4. 45 is like you
weren’t planning to go out, and then you do. It’s pretty ok. 55 is kinda nuts,
but 65 is basically as bad as 25, if not worse. Is just a sexual crisis, all around.
Just fucked up sex shit: sex problems, sex perversion, sex violence, all of it
is 65. 75 we’ve been over (the thorn), 85 suuuuucks. Just a straight up
financial crisis. Someone with an 85 around them is broooooke. I see it a lot on license plates, which, noticing these fleeting numbers just passing through your realm, is a pretty good way to see a "snapshot" of your energy in that moment. 95 is also problematic, because it’s an inability to bring about resolution.
It’s basically problems orgasming or just finishing something or following
through on things. Also, I'm pretty sure this gnarly nature of 5 is why the police are called 50, cuz (sometimes) when you interact with them, shit gets real crazy and it's all way out there, kinda of untouchable by anyone else. And those are the “bad” numbers.
The last thing I want to say is that I feel that the meaning of numbers can be seen in their form. What I mean by that is if you take, say the number 6, and put it on an xy axis, also known as a Cartesian Coordinate Plane, you can see how 6 “means” sex. First, we have to talk about my little quadrant theory again, where up is the “intellect” and down is the “sexuality” and left is the “feminine” and right is the “masculine”. So basically, 6 starts in the "male mind", aka upper right, and then circles the entire lower half, hitting all the low points of masculine and feminine “sexuality”. Let’s look at the number 7. Starts in the feminine mind, goes over to the masculine mind, and then jets right down into the feminine sex. This is akin to a woman talking to a man and all he can think about is what’s under her clothes. So, yeah, maybe 7 is whack. Who knows? I’ll be on the lookout and I’ll tell ya next time.
In the meantime, Numerology is a straight up LIFE HACK, people. Movies, tv, the news, books, Facebook, likes on Instagram, times texts are sent, and life in general is much, MUCH more interesting when you know it and notice it and definitely just...more than people think. I mean, read Brave New World, a numerological masterpiece, and tell me you don’t get more out of it.
You can "read" someone's phone number, address, the numbers on their clothes, their birthday, SSN, their favorite number, and it all "paints a picture" of who they are, what they care about, where they're going in life, if you know Numerology. Super useful, right? YES. However, don't just take my word for it all, everything is subjective and personal and bound by your own perspective, and if a number means something different to you than what I've said, then when you see it, it will mean that. Anywho, just wanted to drop some "knowledge" on ya... see ya in 10 years with an update! XO
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