Humanity has failed.
I am done.
It is over.
Since everyone I know has betrayed me, others, or themselves (or all three, or both, or whatever), I am breaking up with "people". All the people. Probably not for ever, I hope not for ever, but for now, for sure.
I cannot live in this world as a human anymore, as humans have become just so, so awful. Like, vile, foul, terrible, impossible, the very worst, and all that is wrong in this world. I just CAN'T anymore.
When I have given everything I have or could make or chose to do to/for everyone I know or have known or felt responsible for (aka everyone) and they have barely even noticed, let alone thanked me, let alone returned the favor in kind or even thought to, I feel that for my own self-preservation (which I hardly care for at all) I must leave humanity behind, as the dumpster fire IT started consumes IT while most people don't even notice IT is on fire because they're too busy pedaling bikes that go nowhere and eating their iPhones and voting for the Antichrist...
It just isn't working out, people,
and I am done with you ALL.
When I feel that the only people I can trust are children, strangers, one cop, one politician, and one old lady atheist, I also feel that America, the World, and Mankind has completely and utterly let me so, so, so far down. :(((((
I would rather be a flower, or a star, or the wind, or a cat, or a ghost than a "human" right now.
It is so gross to call myself a "person" now that I'd just rather not.
I am going to cast myself out and give up my "civilized" life and run away and forswear all people and forsake my "family" and its "birthright" and eat garbage and manna and step out of reality for a time, and times, and half a time.
I just can't stand to be human right now.
And not because of me.
No,
I am the best person I know right now, which is unacceptable to me. When Tina Fey and Amy Poehler are doing a remake of the Golden Girls (booooo) for 💩DISNEY💩 (double boo), and Bill Murray and Michael Douglas are in the same movie, and my mother tries to assassinate my character while sitting on the throne, and the best man I know betrays me to her, and my therapist pulls some shit so I have to let her go, too, and of course all the wars everywhere, ever, I simply cannot live as a proud member of the human race any longer.
When there are like 2 corporations and they run D.C. with dark money and no one knows how much the CIA budget is and who knows wtf bank tax is and the CFR is alive and well and communication is entirely centralized and kids are getting rotten pizza in school lunches and men are raping other men outside of prison and Native America is drunk all day and food is poison and the ground is sour and the ocean is dying and all the swings are broken and oil is blood and I can't get the metaphysical, metaphorical, magical screams of the women, men, and children being RAPED DAILY in the sex slave trade out of my head/the world I see when I walk outside, and just all of it...
I'd just like to disrespectfully
bow the fuck out.
For my life is a pearl and humanity is swine right now.
And so henceforth... I am married to the dead, GOD is my father, and the Earth is my mother and I have no children because I do not believe in this world any longer. I have taken on what I could, and would, and perhaps should not have, and have tried to save a people hell-bent on their own self-destruction. So...SO MOTE IT BE. I shall bow out of this fight between all humans and all "other" humans and go to the land, forsake everything else, and cast myself to the wind and the flora and the fauna and the stars, sun, moon, and rain; and I believe that will be easier, better, and more fulfilling than staying a part of the human race right now.
I shall take up my crown of 12 stars and walk on the moon and be clothed in sunlight and run from the red dragon and finally, finally give birth to this wretched, fucking baby I have been "pregnant" with for like 15 fucking years. Because I have tried loving my neighbor AND myself AND Satan (so that he may be redeemed), but it is USELESS SHIT and I have seen the (black [hole]) light...
Because nothing gold can stay, and a plague on ALL your houses, and Lilith curse you all, you wasted, imbecile, unmerry gentlemen, FUCK YOU VERY MUCH,
goodnight.
ELI III OUT 👳💋🙋💟😡💨👤💢👵
My inspiration for leaving:
Revelations Chapter 12
The Woman and the Dragon
12 A great sign appeared in heaven: a woman clothed with the sun, with the moon under her feet and a crown of twelve stars on her head. 2 She was pregnant and cried out in pain as she was about to give birth. 3 Then another sign appeared in heaven: an enormous red dragon with seven heads and ten horns and seven crowns on its heads. 4 Its tail swept a third of the stars out of the sky and flung them to the earth. The dragon stood in front of the woman who was about to give birth, so that it might devour her child the moment he was born. 5 She gave birth to a son, a male child, who “will rule all the nations with an iron scepter.” And her child was snatched up to God and to his throne. 6 The woman fled into the wilderness to a place prepared for her by God, where she might be taken care of for 1,260 days.
7 Then war broke out in heaven. Michael and his angels fought against the dragon, and the dragon and his angels fought back. 8 But he was not strong enough, and they lost their place in heaven. 9 The great dragon was hurled down—that ancient serpent called the devil, or Satan, who leads the whole world astray. He was hurled to the earth, and his angels with him.
10 Then I heard a loud voice in heaven say:
“Now have come the salvation and the power
and the kingdom of our God,
and the authority of his Messiah.
For the accuser of our brothers and sisters,
who accuses them before our God day and night,
has been hurled down.
11 They triumphed over him
by the blood of the Lamb
and by the word of their testimony;
they did not love their lives so much
as to shrink from death.
12 Therefore rejoice, you heavens
and you who dwell in them!
But woe to the earth and the sea,
because the devil has gone down to you!
He is filled with fury,
because he knows that his time is short.”
13 When the dragon saw that he had been hurled to the earth, he pursued the woman who had given birth to the male child. 14 The woman was given the two wings of a great eagle, so that she might fly to the place prepared for her in the wilderness, where she would be taken care of for a time, times and half a time, out of the serpent’s reach. 15 Then from his mouth the serpent spewed water like a river, to overtake the woman and sweep her away with the torrent. 16 But the earth helped the woman by opening its mouth and swallowing the river that the dragon had spewed out of his mouth. 17 Then the dragon was enraged at the woman and went off to wage war against the rest of her offspring—those who keep God’s commands and hold fast their testimony about Jesus.
